Saturday, 13 October 2007

Moan On

Anyone would think I was in a good mood. On Thursday I am going away for five days. I have the exciting task of packing to do; a shopping spree to buy new outfits for the rather grand hotel in which we are staying; the farmer's birthday at the end of the month; two trips to Manchester which already promise a good time; my sister coming to the farm to stay for a few days; my birthday in December; Christmas and finally Amy's birthday on 3rd January. And while typing that extraordinary long sentence, Sparky has eaten her way through a pair of my trousers which I left on the bed in order to put away for next Summer. Previous to that, my bank called me on the phone asking if I want a review of my finances, on a Saturday morning, when my branch is actually closed. They do this every month and I am now so fed up with them pestering me I am considering taking my accounts elsewhere. Apart from which, their rate of interest leaves a lot to be desired. What is it with banks? If you are overdrawn they leave you alone. You just receive the odd letter, when there is no postal strike, asking if you wish to take out a loan which you will not be able to pay off because you are overdrawn and which the bank will most probably refuse your application anyway on the grounds that the loan will never be paid. If you have some money burning a hole somewhere, they are suddenly your best friend. I have been "reviewed" three times this year alone and each time I heard the same old jargon. Complete foreign language to me. I smiled at the nice looking man across the desk for an hour while he tried his best to impress then I shook his hand and carried on with my shopping.

My mum has concerns about coming up on Wednesday. She is worried about how much hard work Sparky is. I must remember to stop telling her. Sparky is cute. She is young and active. She needs much more stimulation than that of an average dog. She wee's inside. She eats clothes. She eats pork pies. She steals food from the kitchen table. She can now jump over the yard wall and into the garden, following the path to the drive gate and towards the holiday cottages. She goes inside the cottages when kind (and unthinking) people feed her. Okay, she is bloody hard work.

I have a meeting on Monday morning. I have been advised that now is the time I have to determine Amy's middle school. She is currently in year 3. Therefore she will not start middle school until 2009. A lot can happen in that time. Especially for Amy. For any child, I am sure. I have two schools in mind in the area and if I am not impressed by either I will have to consider private education. But my decision will not be made before the Transition Review meeting on 3rd December in which I assume will be attended by various members of authority, some of whom I have never met, yet seem to think they have a right to tell me what is best for my child. The reason this decision has to be made at such an early stage is because provisions have to be put in place for Amy's special needs. Support workers have to be employed and requirements have to be adhered to should any special requirements be necessary. I have also been advised by a friend who has been through this twice with her own children that I do not have to make such a huge decision at this time. My friend's decision was made just months before her youngest child moved on. Admittedly, her child's special needs are somewhat more severe than Amy's but I will not be "bullied" into making a decision of this magnitude until I feel comfortable to do so.

I am very much looking forward to going away on Thursday. I have no worries. I am sane. I am not in a bad mood. I am in a good mood. My name is Crystal Jigsaw and I am calm.

32 comments:

  1. Oh Crystal!! What a very calm state you are in!!
    Re Amy, no you dont have to take this decision yet, but do be very clear what you feel is the best for your daughter, and stick to that. Dont get into major discussions with the professionals, just state calmly what you want for Amy, and go on stating it.

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  2. Cant see anyone bullying you!
    Enjoy the calm while you can!!!!!!

    (and thank you for your kind words)

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  3. You are quite right, this is not a decision to be hurried. Do your research now by all means, but don't let tem bully you into a choice you are not comfortable with.

    Cx

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  4. one step at at time, my dear. only worry about the next five minutes. hope the trousers weren't nice ones.

    sparky sounds like riley a couple of years back. he'll calm down. if riley did, any dog will.

    have a great trip.

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  5. Of course you are, calm as calm can be. Hope you have a great break. whenever you feel Sparky is a problem remember that milla's dog eats irons! I am sure you are right to take your time and make your decision only when you (and Amy) are ready.

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  6. I hope you have a lovely break, and stay calm, Crystal. It's the best way to get what you want

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  7. Good on yer Crystal - stay calm and looking forward to the break - it'll be here any minute now!

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  8. I admire the way you stand up for Amy and know exactly what you want for her, what you will and will not do. It's important for any child, but it is especially important for Amy. Good for you!

    I hope you have a wonderful time.

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  9. I can hear your calm. It sounds a little stressed out.

    Deep breath.

    And you know this, of course, but since you haven't let them back you into a corner with Amy before, there's no need to start now.

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  10. Lol...'my name is Crystal Jigsaw and I am calm'! I am exhausted just from reading this post! Thinking of you, hope you enjoy that holiday!

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  11. I love that you are staying calm!!Amy is your daughter, you know her better than anyone and you will make the best decision when you feel the time is right. Good for you for not letting them pushing you!
    Sparky sounds like a lot of work, but is sooo cute. I just know he/she will calm down soon.
    Have a wonderful trip, where you focus on yourself, and enjoyin the beauty in the days.
    XOXO

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  12. Elizabethd - I'm getting good at staying calm with professionals. It's either that or I lose my rag!

    Casdok - No, you're right. Bullying is well and truly behind me.

    Cathy - 2009 is a long way off in school days even though I know it will be here before I know it!

    Laurie - the trousers were actually very nice! I had been sorting out my drawer of summer stuff. I hope you're right about calming down.

    Elizabethm - I think Sparky would gladly eat an iron should she ever find one!

    Tina - I'll do my best anyway.

    Withy - But I've got so much to do before it arrives!

    Kaycie - I will always stand up for Amy, whatever it takes.

    RC - Stressed out I was yesterday! Today I feel a little calmer and ready to start packing.

    DJ - Thanks, I intend to enjoy myself.

    Eileen - Sparky is cute, but in desperate need of discipline. We are sending her away for a few weeks soon to have some professional training as she is a working dog.

    Thank you for all your comments and support. Crystal xx

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  13. Take a deep breath - see, you are calm really! How old is sparky? am sure he will settle down soon.

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  14. Calm is a good state of mind. Don't let them bully you. Enjoy your break TFx

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  15. FIBBER!! have a lovely break.. i thought of you the other night when i was looking for somewhere to go on halloween... look up "Plas Teg" xx

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  16. Have a lovely break - you deserve it!

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  17. Flowerpot - Sparky is 6 months old. I do hope she will calm down like me!

    TF - The bullies will not win. I am calm.

    Bodran - Thanks! Not sure how to take that. I do have a broom stick but haven't learnt to fly as yet.

    Gwen - Kind words, thank you.

    Thank you for all your lovely comments and Bodran, enjoy Halloween!

    Crystal xx

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  18. Have a lovely holiday Crystal.

    Do not let anyone bully you on the descision making for Amy, you as her Mother know what is best for her.

    All sounds very busy leading up to your trip Crystal, enjoy some wonderful moments relaxing on holiday.

    Camilla.xx

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