My sister came to stay over the weekend and as usual we lay in a bed of nostalgia, recalling childhood memories. After my dad passed over, my mum decided she did not want to celebrate Christmas again. She wrote few cards that year, gave money as presents while the loft hatch remained tightly shut. After many years of beautiful festive decor, seven foot trees and an endless supply of cheer, our family home became silent. The coldness pierced through skin as one walked into the hallway, no fairy lights to guide your way into a transformed drawing room. As the years progressed, mum has adapted a little more to the spirit of Christmas, putting on a brave front for her children and most of all, the four grandchildren whom she adores. Each year, a few more ornaments have been taken down from the loft space and the cards have once more resumed. Yet she has always maintained her decision about not having a tree in the house. It was my dad's favourite part of Christmas and to have a tree only reminded her of the fact that he no longer shares her life, on our earth plane.
However, my sister and her daughter are staying with mum for a while and this seems to have brought back the wonderful cheer that our parents always insisted should take place. At three years old, my niece, Precious, revels in Christmas; the sparkle; the magic; the peace that is family. So mum has changed her mind about having a tree in the house, perhaps just for this year. Fortunately, I have an artificial one stored away which mum bought me eleven years ago when I lived on my own. It is a gorgeous Spruce with pine cones attached to some of its branches and stands around 5ft tall. I have always loved having it adorned during Christmas but last year was the first time we had a real tree at the farm house, so the Spruce lay in its box, in need of a little TLC.
My mum has agreed to take it. I am so thrilled. Not only will Precious enjoy a traditional Christmas but Amy will be most excited when she sees it in the house, the first one she will ever remember at Grandma's. We know it will be beautiful to see but we also know that mum may reflect a little more than usual each time she turns on the dainty white fairy lights. I also know that my dad will be happy knowing that his beloved family have once more been brought together by his undying love.
Friday, 21 November 2008
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The magic of children and christmas....
So glad that your mum is gradually managing to get into a festive mood again..... she is obviously healing little by little and is making great strides for the sake of the grandchildren.
My daughter and grandsons will be with me this Christmas but the granddaughters will be in Japan. I shall decorate the house though.
Hopefully, this will give your mum the Christmas cheer again. x
It takes a while for the grief to subside, but , as you say, the grandchildren have persuaded her to pick up the threads of her life again. I am sure your Dad will be looking down and enjoying the tree too. "About time", I reckon he'll be thinking!
sigh - beautiful post x
How wonderful....and I bet your dad would have wanted all the joy and celebrating to carry on!
Love christams, full of wonderful childhood memories, its a wonderful time of year for the children.
And when she looks at the tree, I hope she will not mourn her husband's death, but will remember her daughter's happiness, and why her daughter no longer needs that tree. (((Crystal)))
That's wonderful. Children really do make us want to do our best, don't they?
It takes a while to recover one's love of Christmas after a bereavement like that. I remember all too well how I felt with two small boys, having to pretend Christmas could be just as it had been when their Daddy had been alive. Of course it wasn't, couldn't be, and they knew that. But we all went to granny's house and had a slightly more subdued Christmas.
But I love it all, the lights and decorations can really lift your spirits.. it's such a sad time for all who have lost close family and friends, the one time in the year, apart from birthdays, when you are starkly reminded of the missing faces.
After my father died my mother gave me the artificial Christmas tree that my father had always decorated and I gave her the tree that I had bought before I was married. We now have something bigger but she still has the small tree that I gave her.
I'm glad that she's healing little by little, Crystal.(excuse the pun).Amazing what children can do, and I reckon your Dad is happy, proud and reaching out to help your Mum.Re the breastfeeding,I think it's not the most natural thing in the world any longer, as still a minority choose it, that's what I meant by a "lost skill".I hope I didn't offend you, mimi
I don't celebrate Christmas with a tree either. All that loveliness has been knocked out of me. I just can't do it anymore. It makes me sad. In some other life maybe I will again.
Mimi - you could never offend me, I value your comments very much. Thank you for your kind words.
Thank you for your comments, CJ xx
This is a lovely post Crystal.
Sometimes it is difficult to carry on traditions that we closely associate with a loved one who has left us. I'm glad that your mother thinks the time is right to make some new traditions. Happy holidays - Peace - D
Healing is a process that can take many many years but this sounds good.
I think your dad will be totally delighted that things Christmassy will be back in the family home. And I know he will be there to strengthen your mum too, holding her hand from the other side to give her both courage and joy.
By the way, if you're interested, I've tagged you for a book meme.
Oh dear - feeling weepy anyway cos of our family's circumstances and this sparked more tears, but beautifully written CJ x
Crystal,
I think this is so wonderful, baby steps in the direction of healing. Grief is such a rough road. Leave it to children to bring the magic back, puts it in perspective. I know your father will be there, enjoying the love.
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Hi Crystal,
It's so wonderful that your Mum is joining the Christmas cheer this year! It must have been so hard for her but I'm sure that she will see that Christmas can be fun again!
Ahh and days and nights spent sitting and talking about nostalgia! This is something I love to do when I visit my family and friends in the UK!
All the best for you all x
I am so glad your mom is going to put up a tree this year. I bet Amy will love that. We put ours up last night. M loves decorating for Christmas.
That's just lovely. I'm sure your dad will be smiling every time your mum switches those lights on:-)
Thank you for all your comments. Been absent for a couple of days as I've been at my mum's in Manchester.
She was thrilled when I gave her the tree in its box.
CJ xx
Oh wonderful about the tree and your mum's change of heart. Children do make things so different.
While I didn't have a tragic event that caused me to cease all the decorations, just my kids becoming adults, but, I, too, now decorate a little. Because the of grandkids.:) Margie
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