I'm losing the will to blog. It's beginning to piss me off how I'm feeling left out and left behind because of my lack of technical knowledge. I'd like to think I'm an intelligent person; I run a business and have a hot head when it comes to taking no shit, but social media and the never ending list of sites, gadgets, thingamajigs and stuff everyone and his dog seems to be a part of is starting to get on top of me. I know I'm not expected to know about Technorati, Wikio, Reddit, Google Plus, Digg, Flickr, StumbleUpon, LinkedIn, stick it up ya jacksie and kiss me arse, but so many of my blogging friends are involved with these platforms and a lot more besides. In a nutshell, I don't understand them. My head simply won't get to grips with them and whenever someone tries to give me information and advice about them it just doesn't sink in.
Every single day I learn about a new place to promote a blog, to be included in forums, to be in yet another circle, and every single day I say to myself, "what a wonderful day."
It's all getting on top of me and I'm not liking it one bit. I'm trying so hard to be part of various blogging groups but feel I'm swimming in a different ocean to the rest of the members. Probably even on a different planet. I've always been told I live on another planet, maybe this is what they meant all along. I get confused with all the blog talk, the social media gumpf, the crap we're supposed to do in order to 'be seen.' I am seen. You're seeing me now. Look, you're reading my blog.
But it just feels as though it isn't enough anymore. And to be quite frank, I'm sick of it.
You know how much I love to blog; it's a huge part of my life. It's given me confidence and knowledge and friends and grief. Some people see me as 'established' and 'experienced'. But I see myself as an old-has-been; a blogger who can no longer keep up with the demands of modern social media and the never-ending need to be one step ahead. This year has put so many obstacles in my way in so far as technical issues are concerned that I think I've just about had enough. I'm sick of Google having the upper hand; I'm sick of Blogger making up rules as they go along; I'm sick of wanting to change my host but being too scared to do it; I'm sick of the competition and the jealousy, the bitterness and the point-scoring, and I'm sick of blogging full stop.
So I've decided not to add a blog post during December and see where I go from there. I might come back with a vengeance in January or I might try something else, like housework. The bottom line is, I LOVE writing, but I'm not technical and the way blogging has gone, technophobe + blog = bad combination.
I'll be around on Twitter and Facebook - I can just about find my way around those two okay - and I'll be dipping into my blogrolls and other blogs, probably more than usual because I won't be worrying about publishing my own posts for a month. It had to come. I'm annoyed that it has, but it's a long-overdue break and one I think might help me to understand why the average Joe Public is now expected to be Mark Zuckerberg's clone.
Bye for now