After all the down-in-the-dumps stuff of late, I thought I'd ask you all a question to lighten the mood on my blog somewhat. We all have our little fantasies in life, I'm sure, and we all watch someone on the television or perhaps in real life and swoon over them. We are human after all, well, okay, with the odd exception, like an MP for example, but let's not go there... When I wrote Discovery at Rosehill I based the priest on my long-time crush and extremely gorgeous actor, Martin Shaw. I watched my boxset of Apparitions where he played the leading role of a priest - particularly well - on constant playback, while watching him in Judge John Deed is enough to make any hot-blooded female go weak at the knees and I've watched all those episodes over and over again, too. I tried to imagine him playing the part of Steve in Nightingale Woods but to be honest, I have struggled with that image. Steve, although portrayed as a ladies' man, is perhaps a little too down to earth for Mr Shaw and then of course the age differences became a bit of a visual obstacle. I never did find the perfect actor to play the part of Steve though I'm sure he's out there.
So I have a raging crush on Martin Shaw. There, I confess. Hands up, I like the older man, as people who know me personally will have realised by now due to the twenty year age gap between myself and The Farmer. And what I now want to know is a) who is your raging crush - it doesn't have to be a TV star but can be someone you've known for years and those secret feelings have just never touched the surface - b) why, and c) do you, like me, long for the day when, in your next life you will star opposite your raging crush in a TV drama and find all your fantasies come to life?
Now don't be shy, I won't tell anyone.